Tuesday, January 24, 2006

WOW...can you say E X H A U S T E D?!
Life is really strange right now...I don't wanna say it in a good or bad way really. Some parts are great and really fun and others are confusing and stressful....and it's hard to tell the difference for me right now.
School is fine....so fine that it's boring. I think right now I'm going through a lot of mental changes because the way I look at a lot of things, I am trying to put a positive spin on negative stuff. Being bad feels good I guess? And I get mad at myself when I start thinking like a rational human being...not sure how this is gonna work out for me.
I was really happy at first but now I'm not sure if that's changing or if this is just a slump and this "new Megan" is who I really need to be. I'm stressing over the WRONG things...and the things I should be stressing over I'm proud of. ????? What the hell is wrong with me? But who am I to decide what's right and wrong.......fuck im just ranting because i havent said much of anything of significance to anyone lately, just analyzing things in my brain silently lol im a F R E A K